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Love is...a slow fading...an ever present rash...

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 21, 2007, 2:02 AM
  • Listening to: Incubus, A perfect Circle, Radiohead..
  • Reading: Wikipedia Free Encyclopedia
  • Watching: The Screen of this computer...
  • Playing: Playing my death in my head...over and over
  • Eating: Just ate about six buscuits...haha...pig
  • Drinking: Coffee...Caffeine shakes...
I remember my first real love. He was everything to me...I miss him so much, inspite of everything. We made love to Perfect Circle , and that song 'the hollow', reminds me of it...the good times, the times after that mistake he made. You see, I forgave him. Although, the memories are not always good. He raped me, Our second time of having sex and that happened. Does love exist?

"I had one friend in high school recently he hung himself with string
His note said
"If livin' is the problem, well that's just baffling."
And at the wake I waited around to see my ex first love
And I barely recognized her, but I knew exactly what she was thinking of
We sat quietly in the corner whispering close about loss
And I remembered why I loved her, and I asked her why I drove her off

She said
The slow fade of love
Its soft edge might cut you
And our poor friend, Jim
Well he just lived within
The slow fade of love

A woman calls my house once a week; she's always selling things
Some charity, a phone plan, a subscription to a magazine
And as I turned her down, I always do, there was something trembling in her voice
I said
Hey, what troubles you?
She said
I'm surprised you noticed
Well, my husband, he's leaving, and I can't convince him to stay
And he'll take our daughter with him, she wants to go with him anyway
I'm sorry I'm hard to live with, living is the problem for me
I'm selling people things they don't want when I don't know what you need

He said the slow fade of love
And its mist might choke you
It's my gradual descent
Into a life I never meant
It's the slow fade of love

I was driving south of Melrose; I happened upon my old lover's old house
I found myself staring at the closed up door like the day she threw me out
"Dianna, Dianna, Dianna I would die for you
I'm in love with you completely, I'm afraid that's all I can do"
She said
"You can sleep upon my doorstep, you can promise me indifference, Jim
But my mind is made up, and I'll never let you in again"

For the slow fade of love
It might hit you from below
It's your gradual descent
Into a life you never meant
It's the slow fade of love."

Rilo Kiley- A Man/Me/Then Jim Lyrics

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 16 nov 1988
  • Current Residence: South Africa
  • Interests: Glass, blades, art, art critic, music, poetry, philosophy, psychology
  • Favourite movie: Too many...Requiem for a dream...
  • Favourite band or musician: Tori Amos, Perfect Circle, Tool, Nightwish, Nirvana,Lacuna Coil,Cradle Of Filth, Distillers, Garbage
  • Favourite genre of music: Metal, Grunge, Alt
  • Favourite artist: Brom, Savador Dahli, Karen Timm
  • Favourite poet or writer: John Milton, T.S. Eliot, Emily Dickinson
  • Favourite photographer: Simon Pienaar
  • Favourite style of art: Acrylic, Pen...Surrealist and Conceptional...
  • Operating System: Drinking lots of coffee, castle light, take psychadelics at least once a year ;)
  • Skin of choice: Pale skin with scars and cuts...haha...
  • Favourite game: Roleplaying... and 'kidnap and hold the teacher hostage.'
  • Favourite gaming platform: OOOh...definately off a platform, like body suspension and then roleplaying...
  • Favourite cartoon character: Johnny the homocidal maniac, Neurotically yours, Evil Alice, Emily...
  • Personal Quote: Everyday is survival, not struggle...copyright, fucker...
  • Tools of the Trade: BLADES and knives...hee hee...

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~ffgoldensun:iconffgoldensun: Sep 20, 2007, 8:40:53 PM
Someone sent this to me...just passing it on
PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST. IT?S SO DANG TRUE*
This post really means something to me so you should feel it too!

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likey turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will love you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!! this is so scary!!! Send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it is so scary because it works?. but if you break the chain... you will be cursed w/ relationship problems. NO SEND BACKS If you have less than 15 friends its okay.

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so make wise choices
~larkin-art:iconlarkin-art: Aug 11, 2007, 5:52:57 PM
Hi Ally! :wave:
thanks a lot for the fav!:D

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pleasant nightmares,
Joseph

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~dagnyy:icondagnyy: Jul 28, 2007, 8:56:55 AM
Why don't you put some art? Well I'm waiting because from the personality you might have ( i think) you could make something really expressive
~DownMountainBoy:iconDownMountainBoy: Jun 2, 2007, 11:06:52 PM
hello
you should put up some art
:)
~lady-sable:iconlady-sable: Apr 15, 2007, 7:54:31 AM
thank you for the favourite and watch :aww:

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~fizster:iconfizster: Apr 5, 2007, 7:37:21 PM
thks alot for the fav!!! watchie!!!
~ing1:iconing1: Mar 28, 2007, 5:19:22 AM
Thanks a lot for the fav-! :)
~Sopheratus:iconSopheratus: Mar 23, 2007, 10:49:59 AM
hello, hope you're well :)
~larkin-art:iconlarkin-art: Mar 22, 2007, 5:32:12 AM
thanks a lot for the favs and the watch!:) much appreciated:D

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pleasant nightmares,
Joseph

spooky as all heck- [link]
an interview with Art model Andrew- [link]
visit *TheExquisiteCorpse and *Dark-Arts-Asylum
*chibidragongal2:iconchibidragongal2: Mar 17, 2007, 9:48:16 AM
hey, thanks for the faves!!!

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~xXBlackMagicXx:iconxXBlackMagicXx: Mar 16, 2007, 11:17:56 AM
Thanks for the :+fav:

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~robotgranny:iconrobotgranny: Mar 13, 2007, 8:02:03 PM
thanks for the fav!

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~AZIZA-FEMI:iconAZIZA-FEMI: Mar 13, 2007, 12:22:39 AM
ta for the fav :peace:

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=azraelengel:iconazraelengel: Mar 12, 2007, 8:08:50 AM
Thanks for the favorite.

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~CroiBriste:iconCroiBriste: Mar 10, 2007, 3:21:17 PM
thank you so much for the favourite ^^

:hug: welcome to dA

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~xblackxballo0nx:iconxblackxballo0nx: Mar 10, 2007, 11:09:46 AM
thank u for the favorite :)

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and you can't tell your crying anymore
because the hate is all the same
when you dance in the rain.
~lostiniceland:iconlostiniceland: Mar 10, 2007, 9:08:00 AM
thanks for the fav =)

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~LatinPrincess17:iconLatinPrincess17: Mar 10, 2007, 8:39:34 AM
Thanks for faving my Kurt drawing :)

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Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away...
~Dark-Eco-Dragon:iconDark-Eco-Dragon: Mar 10, 2007, 6:14:13 AM
Thanx for faving my Godspped Kurt Cobain pic:D

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~t-w-i-g-g-y:icont-w-i-g-g-y: Mar 8, 2007, 12:43:44 AM
:Wave: Thanks so much for the fave :hug:

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~sugar735:iconsugar735: Mar 5, 2007, 2:00:01 PM Mood: Affection
thanks much for the fave!

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~Gilen:iconGilen: Mar 4, 2007, 12:33:49 PM
Hey,
thank fou for the fave of "Metamorphose - The Pain"!

May I ask you how you found it in DA?

Hope you'll like my other works as well.

Greez, Gilen

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